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Overthinking.

Disclaimer: I dont check my grammar. But feel free to judge my grammar! I dont mind :) and yeah, i'm still learning how to write better in english.

Heyyo!

I'm back.
I just want to express my feelings here, though only 5 people view my previous post aha! Nah, i dont mind. I dont post because of views anymore (yeah, I used to post because of the rating -_-)

Actually, i think i have a problem. I'm so confused right now whether i need to make appointment with counselor or not.

Last year, I got family's problemS. Yeah, lots of problems. I barely can manage all the problems. After that, I changed. I'm not the same person like before.

20 years. I used to mingle with stranger easily. I can go anywhere alone, make friends within an hour. I can socializing with people happily. I was a person who happy all the time. I also liked to volunteer in anything, leadership, debate, or short speech in front of people.

But today, for almost 4 months, I still can go anywhere alone, but I dont know how to make friends anymore. I hate to know new people. I dont like to be with stranger, I dont want to socialize with people, I stop volunteer in anything.

I still seem to be happy-go-lucky in front of my friends, my family.

Yet, every night.... I cried. I become over-sensitive in anything. Even if my friends replied my chat without emoji or without any tone, my mood will change in a second. I overthinking everything.

I dont know.....

Sometimes, I just want to disappear from everyone. I want people to forget me. I just want.